Valediction

Dear Mum and Dad,

And friends I’ve had

This may surprise you

I’ve had it. I’m through.

Without a word, I’m escaping from you all

You say that by playing truant from the ultimate school

Is the act of one immature and irresponsible

But my right to forfeit my right to life is the one inalienable rule

But I have been brave in one respect

I’ve scorned comfort in illusion

Denied myself the panacea of delusion

Trying to face the blankness ahead, and accept

That the heaven for which we hope and crave

The soft white embrace inside the grave,

The justice, peace and answers

Is man-made and made-up.

The elixir in an over-flowing cup

Is nothing but an anaesthetic

This is the secret from which we are gladly kept

That we ignore and I am bitter, is all so pathetic

Grow up and face the reality of

The Mother Cosmos we willingly covet

Whose societal nipple we happily suckle.

Spit out the stale milk of human kind’s mess!

Perhaps I should take this opportunity

To finally seek honesty

From me to you and with the universe

To shake mankind’s eternal curse

Of seeking more than he can have

And simultaneously

Of looking about with curious eyes

With lids tight shut against the bright black

With this last, my fatal gasp

I choose invective, a cackled rasp

All you need is love

But how to trap that with the dove?

I venture into the abysmal dismal

Pretentious to the last.

For how better to protect myself

Than swaddled in ire and irony?

[Laughter]

To Thyself be true

I so wish I could

I am desperate to

But who is who?

And what is true?…

[Weeping soaring wailing song]